Overcoming guilt of being sick: How to have Self-compassion while healing

Last night, I began to feel unwell and started to question if I was coming down with something. So, I went to bed early, loaded up on vitamin C and mushroom tincture, hoping to catch this issue before it escalated. This morning, I woke up at 6 a.m. feeling miserable—sore throat, ear and head pain, sinus pressure, and tightness in my chest. As I lay in bed, my mind wouldn’t stop churning with a list of things I had planned for the day. The more I thought about it, the more frustrated I became about being sick. Nobody enjoys feeling ill, and I often hear that many of us push through not because we want to but because we believe we can’t take a break. Resting and resetting have, unfortunately, become linked to the idea of laziness. We often feel compelled to be constantly productive.

But today, I decided to push those thoughts aside and prioritize my health. I reminded myself that taking time to rest and recover is not a sign of weakness but rather a necessary step to return to my responsibilities with renewed energy and focus. I resolve to listen to my body and give it the care it needs.

After years of battling the relentless challenges posed by Lupus and Cancer, I find myself grappling with a profound sense of uncertainty regarding my capacity for critical thinking. This doubt does not stem from a lack of intelligence or ability but rather from the overwhelming nature of chronic illness, which can cloud judgment and obscure clarity of thought. Living with such debilitating conditions often compels us to overlook the vital signals our bodies send, signals that clearly indicate the need for rest and recuperation. The constant fatigue, pain, and emotional toll associated with these illnesses create a complex interplay of physical and mental strain, leading to moments where making decisions feels like an insurmountable task. It is as if my mind, once sharp and analytical, has been dulled by the weight of my health struggles, forcing me to prioritize survival over the nuanced processes of critical thinking. Each day presents a new battle, not just against the diseases themselves but also against the internal dialogue that questions my ability to think clearly and make sound decisions in a world that often demands quick responses and high levels of cognitive engagement.

I am great at giving others advice to take the time they need to recoup and fill their cup, but I am not great at taking my own advice.

However, today, I decided to take the advice I would give to others. Resting our bodies is not just a luxury; it's a fundamental aspect of health and well-being. When we allow ourselves the time to relax, we provide a vital opportunity for recovery and renewal. This is especially important, as our bodies work tirelessly to repair muscles, heal tissues, and consolidate our memories during sleep. It's remarkable how these restorative processes contribute to our overall functioning.

Therefore, you'll find me snuggled on the couch with tea and a cozy blanket, probably watching the Patriots lose another game and unwinding with my family. I'll let my husband care for me and feel thankful for the love and cuddles.

So, my Fabulous Fighters, this is a lengthy message to remind you to pay attention to your body. Whether it's due to illness, mental fatigue, or simply needing some personal time, it's alright. Self-care is not selfish; it's survival. Do something for yourself today. Find some quiet time, sit still, breathe, and put your worries aside. You deserve the break.

Always in love and light,

xoxo- Fab